Today, I was happy. Not to be confused with joy. Even in pain one can have joy. I experience joy but today I was happy. Just happy for no particular reason at all. I’m more aware of and appreciative of happy after experiencing melancholy more than usual. Melancholy likely due to grief but even in those moments, joy has pushed through, and every honest smile from within feels like victory. I win! I was happy today. I say that with sincere and deep gratitude with my whole heart. Sometimes sadness feels like it will last a lifetime and happiness only for a moment. So I choose to acknowledge her (happiness) whenever and however she chooses to arrive. Today, I was happy. Not to be confused with joy but I was happy for no particular reason at all. Happiness…
“I am not my hair” but I am ask about my hair all of the time? When did you “go” natural? Why did you cut it? Why won’t you do this to it or like that?…I would rarely reveal my own natural hair although it has not been relaxed in 7ys. I would wear weave or braids 95% of the time. Defeated the purpose. It was true. I wasn’t my hair. I was any and everything but my hair. While I have been spreading the message of self-love I had been covering a part of myself. My hair. I love myself but for some time I had a love hate relationship with my hair. So one day I made a decision. A decision to be bold. To do what I wanted to do without concerning myself with what others might say or think. To wear my hair in the natural state I had to be drastic in my approach because I wanted to. I needed a change. I needed to see and feel my natural texture more often. I wanted to get to know my curls. Cutting my hair was freeing. In addition to boldness. It represented change and transition for me. My life literally changed after my hair decision. While “I am not my hair” I am a different woman since I cut my hair. For now I am enjoying it. My goal is not to be my hair but to be true to who I am. Hair. No hair. Braids or weave. Just me. As naturally and as authentically as I can be.
“I am not my hair” by the lovely India.Arie
Photo quote…Coco Chanel
When I vacation on the beach I often reflect and write. Connect with God and with nature. Plus I have a blast! On my last vacation I wasn’t at my lowest or even ideal weight but I decided some time ago to love myself consistently. When I’m up, down, long hair, big hair, no hair, etc. So I did. After I saw this photo, I posted it on social media and journaled. Define your own beauty. Don’t wait to be an expected standard of beauty , weight, height, or whatever. Improvement is great but don’t wait and miss out on how beautiful you are now.